In English
On this particular occasion, he could not even lift his and take aim. Then thought, “All that strength shown was because of ; and when is not there, I am not even able to lift the .” He felt that although his hand had been holding the all these years, it was the strength of that was using it, and he felt very helpless at that time. As was his (inner motivator) all those years, he had felt strong; but now that was no longer in him, he felt like a bag of leather.