In plain words
grew afraid.
Saying, “I will ask Him,” she hastens on; “if I ask, my husband will not answer,” and her stride halts; flustered, her hair coming loose, faltering, in her daze she does not step on, even where she has stepped.
She did not go forward. She did not come back. The power of Advaita spread over her. Though she was His other half, a bewilderment kept coming over her because of that divinity. A doubt kept arising whether He would tell her or not if she asked. When did this doubt arise? It kept arising only when there was a fault. What fault? The root cause here was the Ahaṅkāra that thought, “Viṣṇu, who is with me, is going off without telling me!”
Ahaṅkāra is very bad. It is this Ahaṅkāra that brings about man's downfall. When we crush this Ahaṅkāra, the principle of Prema, which is divinity, reveals itself to us. If these bad qualities, Ahaṅkāra, pomp, envy and the like, are to go, forbearance is our Satya, forbearance is our yoga. Forbearance is our God. Forbearance is our all. You need do no tapas. You need not go to any forest. You need do no sādhana of any kind. Pure Prema must spring from your heart. The Prema of today they utter only in words; it does not spring from the heart. They are only pretending to love; you do not recognise the true form of Prema. Prema has no fear. Prema has no anger. Prema has no hatred. Prema is always full and pure. Many doubts about God keep starting up. It is only when there is no Prema that these doubts come. If there is true Prema, there are no doubts. They keep offering their all to God. God remains in the power of His devotees. The devotee has no other work. For the devotee there is only the thought of God; for God, only the thought of the devotee. To teach what is good to the one who serves him: that is the guru's aim. To carry out the command: that is the devotee's highest aim. Forgetting these two, man today follows whatever he happens to need. This is not right. Prema: