Verse 19

स्वयमेव निबध्नामि जरामरणरागिणीम् ।किमिमामहमेतेषु धृतिमुद्वेगकारिणीम्

In plain words

Why do I, of my own accord, fasten upon these things this contentment tinged with old age and death, a contentment that breeds agitation?