In plain words
In everything you went the opposite way. At such a time, what use is there in My speaking? If I speak, you will give promises again. Those promises will go amiss again. Coming and going like this: in words of this kind there is no use. So if you stay good, and follow our Institute discipline even after you leave here, that alone is My happiness. You need not try to give Me any other special happiness.
But all your old friends will be there. Your parents will be there. ‘Hey, this boy has studied all this time in Swami's Institute and come back; what is this change in him?’ they will watch with a thousand eyes. At such a time they must not get the feeling, ‘Ah, he put on a play there for as long as he was there. Now that he has come here it is the same old game, the same loathsome game.’ So many parents come and tell Me: As long as they were here with Swami they were good. But after coming back there, he does not even come home properly. Going about with those friends, he is getting badly spoilt. The parents too grieve. Tell Me, can such grief be a joy to Swami? All this time, without taking a single naya paisa, I have provided them every fitting comfort, loved them in every way and helped them grow; and when that is so, you are spoiling your time, your money and your purity, all of it: that very thing is Swami's pain. In matters concerning you I am taking care even of the smallest details. If the milk is a little short, or even if the curd is watery, I at once look into it: set this right too, a little; the children are growing children. They need proteins; and in many ways besides, I Myself, vitamin B complex pills, all of it I Myself send from here. Tell Me, what mother looks after you like this? Even at home: what kind of food should be cooked? ‘How did they cook it?’: one must inquire. But I look into it every time. Should you not feel gratitude for this at least? If educated students have no gratitude, they become lower than wild beasts. If anyone charges even one naya paisa more for this, I am deeply pained. ‘You must not take it from those children. We will pay it ourselves’: with this I have it given back to the children, and I look after them as a fine example. They should become good, educated men, and we should see a difference beyond words between the students outside and these students. But some teachers too say it. ‘There is a great difference between the students outside and our students,’ they say. But that alone does not satisfy Me. There is no use in being in discipline only so long as you are here. All our life we must live this discipline like a shadow that goes with you. Whether you are at home, or in the market, in the market, or in the bazaar, wherever you are, just as your shadow follows you, so must your discipline be.