← Mother KrishnabaiHer autobiography

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Spiritual Perfection

O PURUSHOTTAMA Papa! who is all-pervading and all-transcendent, yet my Divine Mother and Father! You caused me to be born in your infinite creation and made me pass for twenty-five years through all the pains and joys of the worldly life. Being your child enveloped in complete ignorance, I felt happiness as happiness, pain as pain and grief as grief. During this period I could not understand why you gave me all these experiences. I did not know then that there was a state beyond grief and joy. But, all-compassionate as you are, on the lapse of twenty-five years, you brought me into your presence and gave me the knowledge that there is a Truth beyond pain and pleasure and that all the manifest creation and the pairs of opposites born of sight and hearing have sprung from it. You then blessed me with a keen longing to know what this supreme Reality is. In a short time you gave me the realisation of it. As a consequence I got the vision that I am the entire universe and also transcend it. Now I am convinced that in this world creation, whatever I see and hear and whatever things are related to pain and pleasure are perfectly natural. Moreover, I came to know that in your dynamic Being these opposites are alike. With this knowledge and experience, having become your child, looking upon you as the Universal Mother, I am currently engaged in all actions in accordance with the movements of your universal nature.

O Papa, the ruler of the universe! Your greatness is indescribable. You are not only pervading the world, you are also the world and beyond it. Before granting me this exalted experience, you kept me in the consciousness that I was a mere body. In this condition my mind, not enjoying serenity and peace, was running hither and thither. I was then a prey to all kinds of thoughts regarding my body and those of others. When I was interested in others, I was obsessed by the thought that they were either different or separate from me. On gaining your presence my restless mind, by your grace, started concentrating itself on your eternal Being. Still, at times my mind, as was its habit, wandered here and there. At last, owing to the fullness of your grace, when it was in tune with your immortal Being, it became for some period calm and serene.

After realising your supreme Being, when my mind came down to external consciousness which was till then making me think that I was a mere body, it now granted me the experience that the whole universe was myself and that I was also beyond it and it attained true bliss. My Atmic experience made me feel that my eternal life cannot be burnt by fire or wetted by water. I became aware that you granted my sublimated mind the signs and attributes of your eternal Being. Your sole object was to bless me with the rare experience of the everlasting bliss of your immortal existence.

O Purushottama Papa, who is at once omnipresent and transcendent! Having manifested in various forms, you are enacting this world Lila. Always victory, victory to you!

It is my wish that no corrections of any type should be made in the future editions of this book.

Om Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram